Since yesterday, I got the chance to meet a few people whom I haven't seen in a few months. You know what I love most about meeting after such a long time? You go up and say hi, or you meet up, and you're worried that the person has changed, and that even though you were close at one stage, you might be complete strangers to each other after such a long time, yet, once you sit, and start talking, it's just amazing how you start to mingle and talk, like you were just with each other yesterday, and while you're sitting there, your life goes back to what it used to be, and all of a sudden, you feel well and secure.
I just got back from my grandparents house, after going to the airport. My aunt and her children are back. The way the kids hugged us all was overwhelming, I missed those kids like crazy, and now that they're back, I just feel like my old life is coming back to me, lol silly because, you can never go back to how things were. We change with time, yet we wish a lot that life can go back to a specific moment...
Okay, I'm not making any sense in here..
Me, out! lol
Posted by Noors at 11:34 PM
First of all, I'd like to thank my dear friend Sam for surprising me with this new look. She's been working on it for days now, and I had absolutely no idea. Still a few things need to be fixed, but I love the new look. Thanks sweetie!
Been a bit busy those last few days. Didn't really have much time to update, and I wont' consider this as an update, it's a thank you note for Sam for her work on my blog.
P.S today was a wonderful day. Spent some quality time with my two good friends, and I ran into a friend whom I haven't seen in more than 7 months. It was a nice coincidance!
Posted by Noors at 1:42 PM
I can be silly sometimes, lol!!
So today, all of my cousins and my sister decide to go and watch ' a lot like love' in the cinema. We get there, and it's crowded, and he had to hurry because the movie was about to start, plus I was having some trouble conentrating on my surroundings after spending the whole day in front of my laptop watching the OC lol.
We get the tickets, and I check them and they say plaza 2. So I just walked straight to the plaza in the middle, which is 1 btw, but I was so disoriented that I walked straight to that plaza, without looking, and there I was, with all my cousins behind me (and they had no idea where the movie was) and the guy checked our tickets and was like, I think you people are at the wrong plaza, LOL!!!
I just laughed and said opps sorry! And walked away laughing. My cousins on the other hand started cursing me, lol, because there were a bunch of guys behind us whom they knew from school, lol, awaina I embarrassed them in front of all those guys and that we are going to be the source of jokes now. Who cares lol!!
But seriously, I can do the silliest things sometimes. I just love putting myself in stupid situations and turn completely red and feel like hitting my head into the wall, lol. But hey, at least I get something to laugh about later!! And besides, the movie was really really good. Ya'll should go and watch it.
Posted by Noors at 11:53 PM
I've decided to stay home today, and do nothing, I needed the rest.
I've spent the whole morning in my bed watching monster in law and the OC. It feels good to be lazy sometimes. I'm the only one in the house, everyone else has been out all day, so I'm just taking advantage of the silence, I'll probably keep doing that all weekend!
Okay now, monster in law, it was such a hilarious movie lol. Definitly the typical mother in law tactics to do anything to protect her precious son from the 'evil' girl, at least in her own mind, who is trying to steal her son from her. I must say that I loved the way J Lo dressed up for her role. Her clothes were so simple, yet well put together, it just gave her a sweet innocent look. As for her wedding dress, I really really loved it. She looked absolutely gorgeous in her white dress with the veil, again very simple yet extremly elegant. Like I always say, simple is the key to attractivness.
A lot like love is out in the movies. I've heard that it's a good and fun to watch movie, and me being a fan of romantic comedies, I think I'm gonna go see it.
Okay, I'm going backk to watching the OC.
Posted by Noors at 4:21 PM
Isn't it an absolutely annoying feeling, when you are surrounded by so many people, yet you feel absolutely lonely and so out of place?
I hate that feeling, it makes you feel isolated from the rest of the people, and you would just be sitting there, smiling to others, yet deep inside, you're screaming for someone to pull you out of this lonliness.
Just some raondom thoughts.:)
P.S surgery has been great. I had a good time today.
Posted by Noors at 12:13 PM
I want to do something new and interesting...
hmm, I need to think about this, and be creative, lol.
Posted by Noors at 2:00 PM
I was on my feet from 8 in the morning until 3. I spent my whole day in surgery, and I got to scrub in and assist in two operations.
The first, was a cyst in the lung. It's like a sac with air collected inside, it was so awesome watching the collapsed lung inflate right before my eyes. It turned from grey to a fresh pinkish colour, subhan Allah!
Other surgeries were simple ones.
It was the first time that I attend pediatric surgeries. I'm used to the big people, and today, we were dealing with tiny creatures.
I'm going again tomorrow. At least I have something that keeps me busy. I don't mind the work, it's the only real thing that I got, and I get to spend the morning doing something I enjoy and blending in with the docs without the pressure of exams or sessions or grades.
Posted by Noors at 7:53 PM
I don't think I slept until 2 or a bit after, and it's not even 7 in the morning yet, but here I am.
I thought I'd be spending my holiday sleeping, at least if not in the morning, then in the afternoon, though it's so not me, hehe, but sleep seems to be down the list when it should be the first!
Updates about my day in surgery once I come back. I hope I have a good time....
Posted by Noors at 6:51 AM
I just got back from a friend's wedding. I was just sitting there with my school friends wondering how fast time has passed by. A lot of us have been together since we were little kids, in 6th grade to be more accurate, and now here we are, 12 years later, we're still very much like sisters, true that we get busy with our own lives, but whenever we get together, for any occasion, it's like we go back to being little kids again, and we get along so well, like we were still in school, with our uniforms. I remember my class very well, lol. We were always so loud, well the girls were, I was the quite one hehe, but the point is, we have had so many good times with each other, because the girls would do all kinds of crazy stuff, that until now, whenever someone brings them up, we start laughing hysterically, like it only happened yesterday.
It's always good to get in touch with them, remind me of the good 'old' days...
P.S, going to Surgery tomorrow early in the morning, I hope I have a good time, I need to get involved in something, I'm not the kind of person who can just stay home and enjoy a holiday...
Posted by Noors at 12:03 AM
I'm absolutely out of ideas...
I'll start updating my blog once I have something interesting to talk about lol!
Posted by Noors at 12:09 PM
Holiday at last!
Finished my final yesterday, I did well in 9 stations out of 10, in one of them, I had a doc who knows me very well, and for some reason, I got all nervous, and I think I made him nervous too. I just lost it and my mind was blocked, literally. Oh well, it happens, I mean 9 out of 10 stations is good, lol, though this doc gave me a looooooong lecture after we finished. Now I have to do oncalls with him, he said he's gonna work on me to get rid of all this nervousness, he doesn't want this to happen to me in my final year, which is nice of him really.
I'm going to surgery on Saturday, yup I'm crazy! lol
Started reading Harry Potter, my sister finished with it yesterday, perfect timing for me! Nurses were all around me today at the hospital, looking at the book and talking about it, hehe
I want to sleep. Seriously, I just want to go to bed. I haven't had a lot of sleep, even after my exam was over, I still had to wake up early today, and I was out all day, even coffee didn't help for long, I mean it did, for like an hour or less, but now I just want close my eyes and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
Posted by Noors at 9:13 PM
It's 7 in the morning. I woke up a while ago with this feeling of chest tightness. I'm scared. Really, I am. Maybe once I start studying in a bit, it'll go away.
Alright, I'm gonna go.....
Last 24 hours of studying, I hope it's productive....
Posted by Noors at 7:04 AM
I can't study!!
I can't study!!
I can't study!!
I'm sick and tired of my books. I just can't sit and read anymore, I'm too stressed out to do anything....
Posted by Noors at 10:34 PM
Been to surgery, finally!
Yesterday was a long and interesting day. I woke up in the morning, and I was so not in the mood for yet another day of 'studying', nevertheless I still got up, and went to royal. I stayed there and studied until about 12, I had to go to squh to check a patients file, then had a session at 2, which if you're interested, was a total waste of time.
Finished at around 3, thought I'd go get some coffee from starbucks to freshen up, went home to get a book that I needed and I was on my way again to royal. As always I have to pass by the OT to check if there's anything going on before going to the library, and this time, they told me they had 4 cases! The first was almost over, and the second one was an everday thing, but I never got to scrub in, and I've always watched it from far away. lol I was standing outside, debating on whether I should go in or just force myself to go to that bloody library and sit and study, but then I thought, I've been dying to go to surgery for 2 months, and I've lost a few chances before because I didn't want to feel guilty for going into surgery instead of studying or sticking to my rotation, and I thought to myself: I won't do it this time, I don't want to regret this late, and for once I'll do something that I really want to do, rather than something I have to do, there's a huge difference.
The doc was surprised to see me, lol, I haven't seen him ever since I went to SQUH, which was over a month ago, so it was good to see him again, we sat and chat, then went to the OT, and I got to assist him, lol, he kept showing me around, asking me questions, and explaining what he was doing. I had a good time. He even let me do a couple of stitches even though he was tired and was eager to finish and get some rest.
It felt good to be back in surgery. I missed that place so much, and I'm glad that finally, I just stopped worrying and just went ahead and did something I wanted. My studies are fine, a couple of hours won't do much different, and I did not regret going in, and even if I don't do so great on Tuesday, it definitly won't be because I decided to spend the afternoon in surgery.
I guess it was exactly what I needed to freshen up! I'm still smiling so go figure! lol
Posted by Noors at 4:13 PM
I was up until after 3:30 am last night, I think it's because of all the coffee I had, I kept studying till I felt like I should just stop and get some sleep. Wasn't easy. my eyes were just wide open, I don't know when exactly did I end up falling asleep, but I remember that it was rather disturbing, I think I was having a bad dream or something. Then sometime close to 5 my phone starts ringing, damn, I hate it when that happens, I just woke up with my heart beating so fast, I was sure something bad had happened. It was an idiot on the line, I think he got the wrong number but nevertheless had the nerves to say, you sure I didn't get the right number? Idiot! I had finally fallen asleep, only to be waken up by a jerk who has nothing better to do, and when? A spiritual time, where people wake up, pray and ask for forgiveness. He sent me two other sms's asking if we can get to know each other, and I thought what the hell! Urgh! Some men are just too bloody immature and have no sense of responsibility or self respect.
It just shows you how far we are from being a civilized nation, when our young generation has the misconception of what being 'modern' is. The lack of proper judgement and the lack of maturity are leading us no where.
Posted by Noors at 4:32 PM
Sometimes I wish I had the ability to erase specific memories that I wish to forget, but then again, isn't it our memories and experiences through this life, whether good or bad, that shape our personalities and help mold who we are? Isn't it because of that, we all change in our own ways?
I guess it's a price that you must pay. To be a better version of yourself, or should I say, to continue evolving through this life, you need those memories, no matter how much we wish sometimes that we could just erase them and pretend that they never existed.
Hmm, it just occured to me, isn't that a way of running away? Aren't we supposed to stand up and face whatever it is and be strong? That's courage I guess, to be able to go through all that, and come out of it with something, and at the end of the day, be able to smile and move on....
(Just a few thoughts going on inside my head, I guess I become kind of weird once I'm under a lot of stress, lol, or maybe I'm just finding an excuse to not study hehe).
Posted by Noors at 9:14 PM
Tagged again! By Sam this time.
1. What does 'love' mean to you?
Love is being with someone who makes you feel safe and complete, someone who's always there in your thoughts and dreams, someone you pray for more than you pray for yourself. You are willing to compensate to be with him,2. What does "marriage" mean to you?
It's a life time commitment between two people who have decided to unite their two lives into one.3. Do you believe in 'love at first sight
I'm a romantic person, or I think I was, and I've always believed in this. Not love but a spark that usually is there when you first meet that person.4. How many children would you like?
2 or 3.5. If given the opportunity, what is that one song you would sing for me on wedding day?
hmm, lol, I don't think I'll ever have the guts to stand up and sing, people will start running away hehe. Hypothetically speaking, I'll probably sing 'unbreakable' by westlife, I love the lyrics of this song.6. What is your favorite holiday destination?
hmm, I'd love to go to Italy.7. What are three qualities you would look for in a man?
Honesty, loyalty and maturity. And may I add, someone who has the power to make me feel well and secure from the inside just by being hiself.8. What are the three qualities and three bad habits that you have?
3 qualities: loyal, trustworthy, always ready to listen and be there to help and support.
Bad habbits: sensitive, stubborn, busy.9. Where do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Probably single, working either here in royal or outside of Oman. Single? Hopefully not though.
I tag, hmm, whoever reads this lol. Doesn't really matter, Sam tagged most of the people I know anyway!
Posted by Noors at 3:08 AM
It's Thursday, meaning that my exam is in 6 days. I'm starting to panic. I've got so much work to finish, and so much reading to do that last night, I seriously thought that I was going to end up with a nervous break down. I know I probably won't finish everything, but I should try and finish as much as I can, and stayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy calm, lol.
I spent the whole day in aqu yesterday studying, had a quick session, then at 4, went to Royal to finish studying there. And at around 8, I just thought I was losing it, seriously, my heart was beating so fast, and I couldn't stop but starting at the paper that has all the core materials that I had to study, and I tried to write down a schedule for me to follow while studying.
Sometimes I think I'm kinda blessed. You know, I was leaving the hospital, and I saw two of my senior doctors. We stopped and talked and had a little chat. The consultant keeps telling me everytime he sees me that he wants me to join his group in medicine once I finish, and not to go for surgery or family medicine or anything else lol, and the other doc, who was so good to me when I was in royal gave me the thumbs up, I never imagined that they had that much faith in me. For some reason, after we talked, I felt calm from the inside. I got some of my confidence back, and I thought to myself, the others aren't better than me, I know I can do it, I've worked hard and I can do it, the important thing is to STAY CALM.
I slept last night like I was drugged lol. It was a good feeling!:)
Posted by Noors at 8:44 AM
End of rotation final is next Tuesday.
Finally, my long year as a 5th year student is coming to an end. It's been such a long and interesting year. My first rotation was pediatrics, yup, I was exposed to sick kids when I first started my clinical years. It was a tough rotation, but very productive and the best part was, I was filled with so much enthusiasim, and despite my very tight schedule, with the late working hours and the oncalls and the readings, I used to do body pump or rpm at least 3 times a week. I felt so alive, and the exercise used to give me a big boost to do well, I always had something to look forward to after a long day at work.
Family medicine, lol, now that was boring. It was like having 2 months of holiday, only negative thing was the LONG hours.
Surgery, loved every bit of it. The late oncalls, the long hours in the OT operating, especially when I was allowed to scrub in and help, and then at the end suture. I learnt a lot, and got to meet a lot of interesting people. Oh yeah, not to forget of course the visits to the A&E for sugical consults.
Finally medicine. It's a tough and deep rotation. Requires a lot of time, and consumes most of your energy, and you always feel like you're behind schedule, actually you're always behind schedule, because it's just too much to finish on time hehe. I loved it in royal, because it was more clinically oriented, and I got to get to know a lot of the docs and the consultants very well, that it made my days over there more enjoyable, rather than feeling like I'm just dealing with a superior. But seriously, this rotation has sucked up most of my energy, and I'm just tired and stressed out comletely, lol, I just wonder how i still manage to get up every morning and drag myself out of bed, into my car and to the hospital.
Yessssssssss, it's been a long year, and it's coming to an end. I just hope I can pass this rotation and do well, just like I did with all the other rotations.
Posted by Noors at 6:18 PM
I feel completely lost......
I wish I could get this feeling out of me so I can live in peace...
Posted by Noors at 11:41 AM
I'm sure you've all got the news of what happened in London.
It was shocking to be honest. Those people targeted stations which are known to be crowded all the time, and they even chose to do it at 9 am, rush hour time.
Edgeware road, this place is like 3 minutes away from our house there, whenever we're in London, we spend a lot of our evenings down that road. My father is staying in a hotel that is in the middle of that road for God's sake.
Covent Garden, I've always loved that place. They have this market where people sell hand made things, such as book marks and little toys, etc... We always had to go there and just have a look around and of course buy a few things, I just love how simple yet creative things they have over there. Sadly, it was another area that was among those which suffered the explosions.
Kingcross, one of their biggest train stations.
Can you imagine how many people might have been injured? 90 were injured in Aldgate station only. The hospitals are in a state of chaos I presume.
My family is there for holiday. We were able to get in touch with them quickly, and thank God they were all safe. It was my dad who we couldn't get in touch with, because he was staying in a hotel, since he just got there a couple of days ago for some bank work. I finally got hold of him with my mobile, it was such a relief when I heard his voice on the phone.
It's just sad. Whoever did this has absolutely no heart at all. Innocents were hurt and injured, and for what? To win a political game? To prove a point, and to hell with people's lives? Just think of the consequences this will have on the Arabs and Muslims living and stuying there. The Brits won't be able to get over this quickly, I mean, come on, what happened wasn't easy!
Posted by Noors at 4:43 PM
Life is a series of experiences put together that eventually define a person's whole character.
Each and every second in our lives is different, and by each and every second we learn something, and change. We might not be able to realize it, because it was probably of not much effect at the present time, but later, when you get to a certain situation, this little thing that you've learnt and had no idea you did, comes in handy, and sometimes you'd be surprised at the things you do, I guess it's all due to the accumulations of our 'experiences'.
Some things that we go through are easy, some are difficult. Others are happy, while a few are sad and irritating. A lot of us would love to go through life, wait, did I say a lot, sorry I meant all of us, would love to go about living in peace, with no problems that would worry you and keep you up all night, and with no sad moments that would make you cry, but it's what you come out with I guess, once you've gone through it all, and experienced what it felt like, that really matters, and eventhough at that time, we might question why it had to be 'us' who were going through this, later we realize that it was probably not such a bad experience after all.
Posted by Noors at 11:37 PM
Tagged by Tia!
How many books do you own?
Err, Don't know really. I've got plenty of books. Never thought of counting them.
IWhats the last book you bought?
I seriously can't remember. I've been burrowing books lately rather than buying them myself. I've got a bad taste when it comes to choosing books lol.
Whats the last book you read?
Hmm, lemme think, LOL. I think it was the bridget jones diary. No wait, I'm sure there's another book that I was reading, but I just can't remember. Hmm, this is getting on my nerves now, I can't seem to remember anything. Short term memory loss I tell ya! Oh oh, I just remebered, Good Omen, yeah, I think that's the name of the book lol.
A book you've been reading for a long time but never got around to finishing?
A Terry Pratchet book. A friend gave it to me, and I'm just dying to get some free time to sit and finish it because it's really interesting. Hopefully once I finish my finals in two weeks.
What 5 books have meant the most to you
-7 habits of highly effective teens.
-Chicken soup for the teenage soul. All 3 of em'.
-Chicken soup for the college soul.
-Life's little instructions book.
-??still thinking about it...
Who would you like to book tag?
Lets see, anyone hasn't been tagged yet? Ali, Amo (if you ever get to read this), lol and anyone who's interested is more than welcome to do so. Just tell us that you've been tagged in my comments corner.
Posted by Noors at 12:45 PM
I had a good oncall last night.
I was the only med student around, and there weren't many admissions, and I was a bit bored in the beginning and thought that I should leave early and probably see if I can catch up with my parents and go to the airport.
The consultant came for rounds, I haven't seen him in a long time, and he was really helpful during the rounds, explaining things, answering questions, joking every now and then, he even offered to take me to a patient, and he made me examine him like I was in an exam, as practice that is. We then ended having a long talk about life in general, I got some really good tips from him, and it was a good change. He did say however and apparently this other doc has told him the same thing, that I spend too much time around the hospital, lol, this other doctor thinks I should spend some time outside having fun!
My sister is back, and she's being too kind that she agreed to go watch 'war of the worlds' with me today, lol I'll probably have to do something in return for her, Oh God anything but go watch a Sharukhan movie, that would be a torture!
Posted by Noors at 12:44 PM