Haven't been giving my blog much attention lately. I was a bit caught up with everything around me, and plus, even when I would feel like writing something, I couldn't, because I'm having some connection problems with the adsl system, so in order to sign in to ANYTHING whatsoever, I need to switch to dial up, so I wasn't really bothered...Oh, my letter 'h' on my laptop is acting all funny, gets stuck for no reason, lol, I've been pressing on it all day in an attempt to get it fixed..Big new, I'm planning on going to 3omra since I have a whole week off. Everything is going according to the plan so far, and if all goes well inshalla, I'll be sitting in front of the ka3ba next week. It's going to be my first time, so there are a lot of mixed feelings and thoughts going on inside of me. I think of it as a chance to clean my soul and what more could a person ask for than spending a whole week with the essence of spirituality and all around them.All I can do now is to just pray, that nothing happens and that I do get to leave soon. I'll make sure to pray for those who are close to me.
Posted by Noors at 6:20 AM
When was the last time I updated my blog? Oh yes, last Monday.Hmm, did ya'll know that one cup of coffee increases your mental alertness, 12 cause you anxiety and tremor, and 100 would actually kill you? Damn, I mean seriously, who's stupid enough, or let me say this again, who has the ability to drink 100 cups in one day, or between short intervals? And how did they actually figure this out? My guess would be that it's just a theory, keeping in mind what caffiene does to your body and how it affects you physiologically.Oh yeah, and dependence on caffience, that results in the occurance of withdrawal symptoms once it's level has gone down in your body, is somehow considered a form of drug abuse.I love coffee, can't live without it. But I won't say that I depend on it everyday. I'd love to just sit and sip some coffee when I'm relaxed with nothing to do, but I start to consume it more when I'm under stress, or when I feel so out of energy that I need something to get me through the day, haha, but when it comes to staying up at night and studying, give me strong coffee, and I'll still fall asleep in 5 minutes, it's useless!
---I was supposed to go get my shoulder checked today and hopefully fix it, now I can't be bothered lol. I am going to go check on a patient in my team instead. I barely have enough energy though.
Posted by Noors at 5:30 AM
I just remembered!It's the 14th of Ramadhan.It's qaranqashoh! Well a bit too late for that lol but I had to mention it. I remember when I was a little kid, we were in this same neighbourhood, and all of us kids would wear our Omani dresses, get a basket, and go around the '7ara' singing the song and asking for sweets.Ah the good old days, lol.
Posted by Noors at 12:17 PM
Ah yes, all I needed was body pump to make me 'high'. Now I know what I've been missing for the last two weeks.It felt so good to be there after that break, as soon as we started of with the first track, I felt well. She played several of my favourite body pump tracks lol, it was absolutely amazing!
Posted by Noors at 12:09 PM
I have a little confession to make.I used to 'hate' frasier. I used to think of it as a boring, time wasting show.I usually keep the tv open while I'm studying late at night, the sounds somehow help me to stay up. Well not always, but at least it doesn't make it so creepy when I'm up all alone, studying, while the rest of the house is sound asleep, hehe. Anyway, a lot of these times frasier would be on, and I would take a break sometimes and watch it. To be honest, I started to like it lol. You gotta really understand the jokes, and some of the episodes are just hillarious!Frasier is funny after all! hehe
Posted by Noors at 12:08 PM
First days, you're always lost, you feel so out of place, and stupid! lolWell today wasn't any different, a very typical first day. I was the first to arrive, as usual. And we were supposed to be grouped in two's to fit the 6 units. Now we're 11, so you do the math, yup, someone has to be alone. I should've seen it coming. I was left out and put in a team all alone. I'm the only female, and the only Omani in my team, and during the rounds, I was ignored by everyone, except for the consultant who, and thank God for that, gave me some attention.To be honest, it's not much fun being there all alone. I don't have anyone to talk to, or anyone to work with, or even anyone to do the oncalls with. It's gonna be just me for the next month. I'm no quiter. I guess, I'll take this as a challange. I don't get attention, well then I guess I'm gonna have to work twice as hard to get some. I don't know anyone, well I've always been good at making good relationships with my docs. I'll get used to being the only student around, and I'll learn to do everything on my own. I gotta prove myeself! It used to be very similar in surgery. People skipping the morning rounds, or leave early on oncall nights, and it used to be me, and I was just fine with that, only difference, was that by that time, I had gotten to know the docs so it wasn't this weird.I just need to find out first, whether it was the secretary who made this arrangement, or was it the students, I wouldn't be surprised either way...Well, a lot of reading to do. Lucky me, it's my first day, and my unit is oncall today, and also this weekend. I haven't gone to body pump in a while, because of my finals, and I so wanted to go today. Oh well, maybe next class! Wish me luck people! I gotta try and make the most of tonight! :)
Posted by Noors at 4:02 AM
I don't look pale...Why does everyone keep telling me that I do?!!!!! I mean, for the first time, in more than a week, I was able to sit and eat a proper meal without feeling like throwing up lol.I feel like having some ice cream now...
Posted by Noors at 12:37 PM
Everyone seems to have plans for this weekend. Erm, I don't! I should've planned for something, since I've just finished my rotation, and so this weekend is supposed to be like a break before the next rotation.Might just go to omantel and fill in the forms for adsl, at least it'll get me out of the house for a bit.haha, I was hoping my little brother would be home so that we can both fill up the punching bag base, with water, I can't go get sand, too much hassle, and spend some time together punching. He's going out with the other kids, so it's just me I guess, for now, lol that kid is excited about it as much as I am!
Posted by Noors at 6:22 AM
Okay, I think all I needed to feel better, was to go get my punching bag.My clinical exam today was good. My first patient was easy going and cooperative that it gave me a boost towards the other stations. One of our consultants in medicine was there, lol, just as a guest. He said he was curious to attend the psychiatry OSCE and see how it's done. We were the first group to be examined, so we were kept in a room, and locked away until the other groups were done.Anyway, I got my punching bag. I'm still not home yet, and it's in my car. I can't wait till I fill it's base with sand and use it, it's gonna be so much fun.I'm so hyper, haha!
Posted by Noors at 2:16 AM
What if I paint my car with a flashy pink colour?Or maybe, paint it black, with big random red spots all over it, to make it look more like a beetle?*I'm bored, so go figure! lol*P.S Exam was? hmm how was it? I think it was okayyyy. Err, whatever...I better go study for part two.
Posted by Noors at 5:43 AM
I'm still in no mood to do anything. Did you ever feel like you just want to forget everything, and ignore all your work and just sit and do absolutely nothing?I've been forcing myself to revise. It's extremly difficult, and I've been very restless. My exam is tomorrow, and I'm still not worried at all!!Something happened to me yesterday which I found rather irritating. Think of this. I left uni early so that I can get to city centre and buy the punching bag. I had to wait till the guy who was working there finished with a customer, because I had already agreed on the price the previous day with his colleague. Anyway, another guy walks in, walks around like he owns the place, and this sales person runs to him, and asks me to please wait. Why? Oh this guy is spending 600 rials!!Urgh, at first I waited, but then I got so mad that I told him to show me some damn respect since I was there first. I was so pissed at him that I asked him will he only give me some more attention if I marry a billionare and come in here and buy the whole shop?It's really rude to ignore someone who was there first just because the other is paying more. That's now how you run things. You come first, you get served first. Doesn't matter how much you're paying, and it should never be about money, it's about showing ALL your customers the respect they deserve.pffff
Posted by Noors at 3:26 AM
I have a final exam coming up in 3 days, and I just can't be bothered to sit and study properly. I'm not even worried about it at all. This can't be normal, I'm supposed to be working for it. Thing is, I've read all chapters throughout the rotation, and it is just too boring to go back and read everything again, I know it well enough....urghhhhhhhSeriously, I am so fed up of studying. I just want to stay home, stay in my room, and do nothing for some time. Not just a few hours, but maybe a few days. I'm starting a new rotation next Saturday, orthopedics, i.e. I'll be working with bones, maybe I'll start enjoying myself a bit more then?I'm 23, and I still have to worry about exams and evaluations.....*Snap out of it, go back to reality, the rotation is almost over*
Posted by Noors at 12:00 PM
I've been so emotional those last few days. It's exhausting!-----Aside from this whole inner soul talk, I bought this really nice bag that I've had my eyes on for a long time now, and all my aunts loved it. Guess what happened to it as soon as I got back home? Yup, I spilled coffee on it. Lucky for me, my mom was quick enough to wash it before it dried on the fabric, and I've kept it to dry now. Haha, call it whatever, 7assad, bad luck, I don't care. All I care about right now is for it to dry out and look as good as new, what am I talking about, it is new, hehe, I wanna carry it to uni tomorrow!
Posted by Noors at 12:30 PM
I had a very strange dream last night. I usually forget most of my dreams but this one is still fresh in my head. I won't say that it was disturbing, but it was definitly unexpected. It's been in my head all day long.
Do you think that our dreams tell us whatever it is that lies deep in our unconcsious mind? Or are they just loads of nonsense?
Hmm, I think they could be both. I think that sometimes your soul wants to tell you something, which you have been trying to deny, and show it to you clearly, in your dreams, and make you somehow live it. And then of course, it could have been a long day, and your dreams are nothing but a bunch of collected memories and thoughts that were in your head, and for some reason, they are all poured into your dreams, maybe to just get them out and clear your head? Maybe, who know?!!
Posted by Noors at 3:25 AM
This might sound a bit weird, well maybe it's not, but I just don't know why I want to add something extra when I already have a very hectic schedule and should probably use the little 'free' time that I've got to actually relax and maybe get some sleep.Thing is, I want to do something. I don't have anything in particular in my mind. All I know is that I want to do something for myself. The idea has been in my head for a few days now, maybe the punching bag is an option. I just know that I want to have something that belongs to me. Something that I can do all alone perhaps. Just something to make things more exciting around here, add an extra flavour to my usual routine, and maybe ease some of the stress.Hmmmm
Posted by Noors at 1:12 PM
It's here at last....
Tomorrow's the first day of Ramadan, so Ramadan Kareem everyone. I have a good feeling about Ramadan this year, like I usually do every year lol.It's been a looooong day. haha, one of those days when you keep doing something stupid, and then it becomes like a luck curse and you keep putting yourself in silly situations lol. The doc in surgery ended up laughing at me, haha, I was trying to get back at him for for asking too many questions, and thought I'd ask him something, haha, ended putting myself in a funny situation. Don't ask! lolI pray that this blessed month will be miraculous on us all, and may you all have a month of happiness, prayers and only the best that life can offer! :)
Posted by Noors at 12:01 PM
I've had the idea in my head to go donate blood for the past few days. I've donated blood twice in my life only, after that my hemoglobin (Hb) started dropping so I was always rejected.Anyway, it's almost Ramadhan, and usually at this time of the month, the blood bank usually suffers from a shortage in blood supply, and so this is a good time to donate blood and somehow help with the shortage. And believe me when I tell you, it's no joke at all. The shortage is so serious that the bank announces a state of emergency and starts spreading out the call for people to donate.I was feeling positive, lol. I had a feeling that my Hb was better since the last time I checked, which was last February, and my Hb was 9.7. My friend and I had a deal that even if I don't get to donate blood but my Hb has increased, then I owe her a chocolate cake lol.So, we sat there, waiting for our turn to come, and when the nurse did check my Hb she said it was still low, 10.6, but I was realy happy that during these months I was able to increase it slightly, lol, it's an achievment! At least now I have a two digits number instead of one, and now I have to bake a chocolate cake!Oh well, maybe next time, it'll be high enough to donate. I think this is the 5th time that I got rejected, lol.Message, do donate blood if you can. You can save three lives with one bag of blood. What can top such a feeling?
Posted by Noors at 6:16 AM
I was just watching the Oprah show, and they were bringing in people whom she has interviewed before as a follow up to see how they're doing.One was a woman, who was having weight issues, and that was the main problem with her husband. They got seperated and got back to each other a couple of times, and her husband was seeing other women with 'thinner' bodies, and she couldn't stop him because she felt guilty of the way she looked, and she couldn't leave him, because she thought she couldn't get someone better!! Total lack of self confidance!!That man has destroyed her self esteem, and he just sat there and talked about it with all the nerves. I just sat there, and I soooo wanted to scream from the top of my lungs and tell him exactly what I thought of men of his kind.Luckily, after being on the show. This lady started to get her self esteem back, and she realized how stupid it is to be with a man who only wants the 'outside' and not her 'inside', and she realized that she's not getting anything out of this marriage, but on the contrary, she has lost a lot. So she filed for divorce, and I think it's about time she did. I was just sitting in front of the tv and kept saying, 'you go girl, you go girl', lol.I mean, the stories you just hear......
Posted by Noors at 11:47 AM