Life
"Life is unfair, get used to it"..
Many times in life, we're thrown into situations where we need to make the harder decisions and go with the choices that might not seem very fair to you at that moment, but you know it's the right thing to do.
It's ironic how life is. The bittersweet taste feeling keeps us all in a constant battle with ourselves.
We all underestimate our strengths in handling situations until we're put into them, after which we begin to realize just how strong we actually are in standing up after falling real hard. We begin a new chapter, eventhough deep inside we hate the change, we wish things would go back to how they were, but gradually I guess, the bitterness fades away, not completley though, some of it will always remain inside of you, to remind you of the past, but you move on and experience new things.
Yes, we humanbeings have an enormous capacity for adaptation with any situation we put into. It's part of who we are, we don't plan to adapt, it just happens spontaneously, and no matter how long it takes for that to happen, it will eventually..
Posted by Noors at 2:18 AM
Trust
Trust....
Such a deeply meaningful word, which a lot of us these days take for granted, it has become a word that is so easily said, even when it's not entirely or truly meant.
"From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Trust in
sociology and
psychology refers to an open, positive
relationship between people, or between people and social institutions such as a corporation or government. More specifically, trust is the belief by one person that another's motivations towards them are benevolent and honest."
So according to the above defintion of the word 'trust', you clearly see that when you use it, you're supposed to mean it, sincerely...
It's so easy to say the words 'trust me', the hard part is to keep your promise and stick by what you say, and put it into action. When you fail to do that, you have failed that person and have truly disappointed them..
Why say it, if you don't really mean it?
One of the things I respect most about some people is that they are a living example of sticking to their words, you can trust them no matter what, and you know that whenver you need them, they will be there for you. The question is, when do you know that you can trust someone? And how much should we trust others? Completely? Should we keep it in our minds that this trust might be broken one day?
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On a lighter note, away from all the philosophy, I'm enjoying a delicious home made hot chocolate. mmmm!
Posted by Noors at 7:04 AM
The past!
A lot of times, we go back in our minds to the past, and relive some of the memories of special days. You go back to times which you truly miss and wish you could have it back somehow, even though it might have been stressful and probably got to you at one or two occasions, but in general, it made you feel so right in place and had given you the sense of belonging somewhere, that you didn't really mind having to put a lot of effort into it.Why do we hang on to the past?
Why is it hard to let go of some of the good days in your life? Is it because we miss it terribly? Is it because you feel out of place, lost and probably empty? When you sit with yourself and remember something, you just wish so hard that you could go back to those days, even if it was for a few minutes, but to just go back to that one event that gave you that special feeling which you no longer have..
Again, why can't we just concentrate on today and the future, and let the past be just that, 'past'!
Posted by Noors at 12:22 PM
It's after 6 in the morning, I haven't slept at all, and I'm still wide awake.
I have a final exam in two hours, I finished revising at around 4 so I could've had at least 2 hours of good sleep, but I was wide awake, damn it!
Haven't been able to eat at all because of the pain, I have to go see a dentist today, haha, I have a phobia from dentists, they scare the hell out of me, probably because I was traumatized as a child with my repeated visits to the dentists and having my tooth removed each time, plus I have a sore throat, AGAIN. If I end up with a flu ( I just had it two weeks ago), my mom will throw me out of the house lol.
Good news, I found a ladies gym only in Cardiff, now that's something to be happy about. If I'm not mistaken it might be close to the hospita where I'll be training.
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Not much of an update, I'll come up with a better, more serious topic to talk about, hopefully after I get some rest after my exam, and after my visit to the dentist, my mind is frozen because of the horror of having to sit on that stupid chair, urghhh, lol.
Posted by Noors at 7:06 PM
For the first time in quite a while now, I felt really well from the inside. I got the chance to meet up with my 'school' friends today, and we had a blast. For a moment there, it was like we were back in school, just us girls, chatting and laughing loudly. Those girls are so dear to me. We grew up together, and so we know each other very well, and even though we might not get the chance to meet up regularly, because each is busy with her own life, whenever we do, it's like we were together only yesterday, and we all know that no matter what, and whenever we need help, they're all ready to be there, in good times and in bad times, we've always managed to stick together.
Posted by Noors at 2:10 PM
It's such an awful feeling, when you're surrounded by so many people, yet you feel lonely and isolated from the rest by this invisible, hard to penetrate wall. You smile, you talk, but deep inside you're screaming at the top of your lungs, but no one listens, and you sink deeper and deeper into this loneliness hole...
Posted by Noors at 1:12 AM
Don't you just love it when someone close to you, like a friend, surprises you all of a sudden with a very simple yet meaningful gesture that makes you feel wanted and cared for? Especially during a time when you feel like you need something to cheer you up, or to just feel that there are people around you who do care!
Little blessings of the day!
Posted by Noors at 12:29 PM
Mosquitoes
Damn those stupid mosquitoes!
Urgh,
It's like I have some kind of a magnet that attracts them. I've got bites all over and it's driving me crazy, no matter how much I spray my room, I somehow get bitten :S
Why me? Why oh whyyyyyyy?!! lol
Posted by Noors at 6:45 AM
Another thought
~ There's nothing worse that the sudden realization that something you once thought was so real turned out to be absolutely
nothing....
Posted by Noors at 2:48 AM
Strawberry vanilla
I'm so into scented candles these days..
I bought one yesterday which I initially thought was a bit too sweet for my taste, but now I came to really like the smell,
'Strawberry Vanilla'.My room smells really good right now! lol
My mom laughed at me, and told me that these smells never impress her because she's used to the bukhoor smell, which is something I love too, but hey a change every now and then is always good!
Posted by Noors at 8:36 AM
Cycling!
Right, I have to let it out, lol.
I'm so in love with the bikes at the gym, I woke up at 7 today on a Thursday morning, even though I went to bed at 3 am because I was studying for a final that I have on Saturday.
The whole atmosphere is one of it's kind. Everyone is smiling and laughing, making jokes and talking to each other. I love the music that we use during the class, it's loud and the beat is fast, you gotta keep your legs moving THE WHOLE TIME, and try and keep up the pace with the beat. Sometimes we're standing up, other times we're racing, and along those, the resistance changes from easy to hard. A lot of times you end up singing along, as loud as you can, because you're just so into 'the mood'.
I like it when you're standing up and the beat goes really really really really fast and you gotta jog on your bike and keep up, a lot of times my legs betray me and they slow down, not this morning though, I did it! lol
You might think it's disgusting but I looooove sweating while exercising. lol My shirt is usually soaking wet by the end of the class and you get this amazing feeling because it's an achievment to have survived and you feel like you are capable of doing anything and everything, it honestly gives you the will power, and destresses you. For an hour there, you forget about your worries, about the outer world and about those who bothered you, and you feel well from the inside. You never leave the room without a big smile on your face.
It's one of the things that I'm gonna miss the most when I leave for my elective in a month, I can't imagine going for two months with no cycling or power bar..
Posted by Noors at 11:25 PM
Thoughts
~ If you're the kind of person who believes that there is good inside everyone, and wouldn't mind giving people the benefit of doubt and a second chance, with caution if I may add, is that wrong? I believe that no matter how terrible a perosn is, deep inside, when you search real hard, you have to find at least one thing that's good about them, God created us with the goods and bads, who are we to judge and believe otherwise?
~ How much can we trust each other nowadays? How many times will our trust be taken for granted? Whatever happened to respecting this fundamental aspect of any relationship of any kind.
~ Is it so wrong to let those whom you care about come before you? And if you do so, will you ever be appreciated?
Posted by Noors at 11:29 AM
Women and love!
Before I start with my topic, I don’t want any comments telling me that I'm being biased and to not generalize because all I'm doing is quoting a psychologist that was on Oprah yesterday who was giving some advice to a lot of women who were cheated by men in their lives.
The first story is of 9 different women who all fell for the same guy, and either got married or engaged to him without knowing about the others. They all thought that they found the man of their dreams and were so in love, and so obviously, for them to find this awful truth was like hell as they were heartbroken. The second was of a lady who was married to a man for 3 years, and was having a cruise in the middle of the sea with him and the rest of her family to celebrate her birthday. He kept telling her he had a surprise for her. Apparently his surprise was for her to wake up on her birthday to realize that he had completely vanished. Again, this lady was shattered. She had a lot of unanswered questions and said that she missed her 'best friend'.
Now what the psychologist said was that women, all around the world that is, are brought up thinking that they can only be complete once they found a man they can settle with, and without that, no matter how successful she is, no matter how full her life is and no matter how much she has achieved, it's all incomplete if she hasn't found a man to be by her side. This idea has to change. A woman has to feel complete first before she even thinks of finding someone, because otherwise, she will just keep giving in in this relationship because she will try everything she can to keep the relationship going on. She wants to feel 'secure' and 'taken care of'. Why does being complete have to be by having a 'man' by your side? Why can't you feel content with yourself, not just content, but proud of your life, and your achievements, be in complete control over your life. Only then should you go ahead and try something with the other gender, only then will it be healthy. I fully agree with her on this point. No woman should ever feel less just because she doesn't have a 'man' by her side. I believe that finding someone is a just an extra luxury, if you find it, then why not keep it, but if you don't, it doesn't mean that your life is not complete and that you should feel sorry for yourself or less of a woman. It's not only about finding someone, there's a lot out there that can make you happy and content with what you have. Never feel bad for yourself and never ever let what others say or think affect you!
Another thing that the psychologist talked about was how women in general always dream of her charming prince who will show up one day and sweep her off her feet. You know what she said? 'Wake up, it ain't gonna happn!'. Now I'm a romantic person, which probably makes me a typical woman, but I realize that what she said is somehow true. I still believe in true love, it's rare, but it does exist, but women should stop dreaming about the perfect true love, because when they keep their hopes so up, they will fall deeply for any guy who gets close to them, makes them feel special, and then once she gets her heartbroken, she breaks down completely, because to her, her most important dream had shattered right in front of her, and she continues to live in denial, making excuses, asking herself why. She said women should stop asking for explanations, because if it came to an end, then it's not worth looking into. I must say she has a point in what she said, but the way I see it, don't stop believing in finding the person who was meant to be with you, but at the same time, don't pour all your emotions into a relationship, keep the thought in the back of your head that maybe one day this won't work out. Either because it got out of hand and it wasn't anyone's fault, or because the guy did not deserve you and so you should not dwell on it.
I guess that's the difference between men and women. They way they perceive love. Women get more attached, for all the reasons that the psychologist talked about, which makes it harder for them to just 'let go'.
Posted by Noors at 6:01 AM
Strong? Or weak?
"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong".
What do you think of this statement?
I totally agree and believe in it. For some reason, a lot of people nowadays think of the person who forgives others and overlooks what they did as a weak person, who can never get anywhere in this world because he or she prefers to give others the benifit of doubt and forgive them for their mistakes and wouldn't mind giving them a second chance.
But then again, when does it considered to have crossed the line and the person is labelled as a push over, who easily lets people get over him or her, because they can't stand up and defend themselves or fight for themselves, while forgiving others and making excuses for how they are being treated?
Did you ever stop and wonder that maybe that person is well aware of how others are dealing with him/her yet still prefers to forgive and forgive? Sometimes it's not about being naive, or too weak to say something, but merely because there is no use of saying anything, or because you have your own way of dealing with the situation. Only problem is, a lot of times, these people are underestimated, and are labelled as 'weak', who can't take care of things on their own. Did you ever bother to look into them? Really understand what it is that they're thinking? You might be surprised!
I'm not saying that all those who can never say something are strong from the inside. Some are truly weak, they don't have the guts to speak out and fight, I'm just saying that there are others who are amazingly strong, in their own way, you just need to pay more attention.
Sadly, a lot of us only judge by what we see. We don't take the time to really understand each other anymore..
Posted by Noors at 3:22 AM
