Friday, September 30, 2005

Al Shamshoon!! Say what?

Has anyone seen the new advert in mbc about showing 'the simpsons' through the month on Ramadhan? If you haven't, then you'd be wondering, well so what? It would be nice to watch it, well here's the bummer, they've ruined it! Oh yes they have, *sob*.

They have an arabic/egyptoin version of it, so go figure!

Why? Why, why oh why?!!!! The Simpsons will never be the same again, or should I say, 'Al Shamshoon', I think that's what they're calling it now!!

Posted by Noors at 4:04 AM 7 comments

Growing up....

Yesterday, one of my good friend from school got married. I must say that it was a very emotional moment for a lot of us. After being in school for 6 years, growing up together, spending a lot of time with each other, we kept in touch after graduating. She looked amazingly beautiful.

I remember our days as kids. How loud most of these girls were, well, they still are haha. But they've all grown up to be amazing women, all in her own way, each busy in her own seperate life, yet still making time to keep in touch, and to be there for one another in their happy and sad moments.

We were the class that was always compared to the boys, lol, they would do the craziest things, and until this day when we get together and start remembering some of those things, we start laughing like it just happened, it was never boring to be around those girls!

*I wanna go back to school days lol*

Posted by Noors at 1:12 AM 1 comments

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Surgery

I decided today to go to Surgery and do an oncall, since I didn't have much work to do. Didn't get to see any cases, and there were no cases for surgery, but it felt good to be there again. Just like the old days. At least it's a start. I'll be reading more, discussing more with the doc, and hopefully attending a few surgeries. For some reason I feel like I fit in there really well.

Posted by Noors at 12:04 PM 3 comments

Monday, September 26, 2005

23 today!

Yes people it's finally official. I'm 23 years old today.

What I like about birthdays, isn't the fact that it's a chance for you to be the centre of attention at your own party, but rather see how many people care enough about you to wish you on this day.

As soon as the time ticked 12 am, I got 3 messages on my phone, and a phone call from a dear friend who's not in town. As usual, my sister always calls me when I'm already asleep, and her first question would be, why are you sleeping when it's your birthday lol!

This is the first birthday where I get not just one surprise, but 3! Some friends got me a cake in uni today, I thought that it was really nice of em' to go through the trouble of trying to surprise me haha.

Body pump, a must, birthday or no birthday lol. I started laughing like crazy when the trainer played the 'slave to the music' song, I've been driving my sister crazy every time she gets into the car with me with this song, she hates it so much, and I usually play it just for her, loud enough for her ears to ache hehe.

My day ended with a lovely family dinner. Chinese.

It's been a good day. I thought I'd get a few more calls from people I know, oh well, you can't get everything, and I'm planning on starting a new chapter in my life, forget everthing and start fresh and new, I hope! :)

Posted by Noors at 11:38 AM 11 comments

Friday, September 23, 2005

Surprise number 2!!!

This weekend has been one of those where nothing goes right, like I said in an earlier post. Things were just messed up, haha, more like a jinxed weekend.

My aunt and I had planned on going out for dinner with some of my cousins. So we did. We thought we'd go to Nando's since we haven't been there for a while now. There were a bunch of girls who were there, and they had apparently planned a small surprise for their friend's birthday. That was nice.

I had to leave them all for a few minutes to fix my scarf. That's the only time that they were left alone lol. And just before we leave, I see a bunch of the people who work there, coming towards our table, singing 'happy birthday' and holding a piece of cake and a few balloons, LOL!! Now that is something I did not see coming at all. My birthday isn't until Monday, and I've already had my surprise, haha, I never expected to have another one. One of my cousins videoed the whole thing on her phone, and I just couldn't stop laughing when I had a look at my face expression! Apparently, they got the idea when they saw the girls surprising their friend, and used the time that I left them to plan this. It was a sweet thought. They really made me feel wanted and special at that time. I guess I needed it so badly.

I'm blessed with the people around me I tell ya!

Posted by Noors at 11:46 AM 6 comments

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Gossip!

I don't really understand it.

Why do people enjoy talking about others so much? Lack of topics to talk about? Too much free time that they're so bored, so they decide to fill their free time by making up stories about others?

You see them sitting together, talking and talking, analysing things, making up stories, and don't be surprised if they smile at you then go and talk about you behind your back.

How can we ever move forwards if we waste our brain cells on such silly stuff.

Not only that, it's not part of our Islamic ideals to talk about people. It's Haram. Simple as that. Islam isn't just about praying and fasting, it's about the way you treat people, they way you work hard in this world, and the way you try your best to be a good person, in your own individual way. Sadly, a lot of us tend to forget, and we go on in this life, acting in a very selfish way, forgetting those around us. To me, it matters a lot that I treat people the way I like to be treated. I always try and think of the better side of a person, because I want them to do the same with me. It doesn't work that way in this real world I'm afraid.

Posted by Noors at 12:41 AM 0 comments

One of those days...

Yesterday was just one of those days where nothing was going right.

I started my day by having an argument with this girl who's been getting on my nerves for ages now, and I've kept my mouth shut again and again, because I'm the kind of person who's 'too nice' to stand up to such people, not a good thing I tell ya.

Now here's what really pissed me off. I was driving in Seeb, with Sam, and all of a sudden this policeman stops us and another comes with his car and approaches us. He was rude I tell ya. Apparently, he waved for us to stop a while back and we just ignored him and kept on driving. Now I'm sure I didn't see any policeman or a police car for that matter, and I told him so. He said that it ticked him off that I didn't stop, and insisted on giving me a ticket for that. I mean, why on earth would I ignore a policeman, didn't seem to matter to him anyway. I just hated the way he talked to us. Now Sam's theory is that, this guy has had a very boring day, with nothing to do, so when he saw a bunch of girls, he thought of showing off his muscles by stopping us and treating us like dirt.

Idiot!

Posted by Noors at 12:32 AM 2 comments

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

There's a lot of shit that's going on in this world. Sometimes, when you have a good and easy going life, you become ignorant of what is really happening in the 'real' world.

Ever since I started working in the hospital, I've been seeing different cases, different problems. Some are silly, while others are heart breaking. You would be shocked by some of the stories you hear, and you would just wonder how some people survive.

When I first started medicine, I had this dream, to help others, in any possible way. The best reward that you can get at the end of a long and stressful day, is a smile from a patient, or a prayer. I've been through it, and it's such an amazing feeling, when someone looks at you and says 'thank you and may God bless you'.

They were repeating an episode of Oprah the other day, where she interviewed this Dr, who's in Africa, helping women with a treatable problem, who were neglected by their families, to get help and return back to their homes. It was touching. I hold so much respect for people like her.

I wish I could do half of what she's doing.

Posted by Noors at 1:28 PM 4 comments

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Another post..

Okay, I'm officially exhausted!

It's only the second day of the week, and I feel like I've had enough of it already! Long hours, running here and there, and I've barely been having any proper hours of sleep, either because I have a lot of work to finish or simply because I just can't fall asleep. Surprisingly enough, or wait, maybe not so surprising, lol, I don't mind it at all. I think keeping yourself busy gives you a purpose to wake up every morning, and takes your mind of other matters that would otherwise overwhelm you.

Let me share with you something which I said this morning which I think the guys in my group thought was silly, hmm, to me it makes perfect sense, well it did at that time.

We had a session this morning about eating disorders, which is a problem found mostly in females. So the discussion was going on, and I just kept quiet, and didn't say a word, until the very end, when I decided to open my mouth, and I said: 'I think that we have to blame men for this. They look for perfect bodies, thus putting a lot of girls in agony trying to have that perfect shape, and so no matter what, a girl would always see herself as being fat, and this also creates all the competitive feelings among girls themselves'. Of course it's not a general comment, but isn't that part of the problem?

What's even more annoying, is how once they are married, and those women lose their shape, because of pregnancy and so forth, a lot of their men start looking around for someone else. Again I'm not generalizing, but you cannot deny the fact that this does indeed, as sad as it is, happen.

Posted by Noors at 11:11 AM 2 comments

Friday, September 16, 2005

Thank you girls!

A special thank you to two of my closest friends, Sam and Tia. Since Tia is leaving soon, these two girls, were planning on something behind my back. So today they blind-fold me and take me somewhere where they surprised me with a slice of cake with candles, and we had an early birthday party.

That was really touching. I've always said that I was blessed to have you guys in my life, and today, I just can't express how happy I am.

I will never forget this day. It was simple, yet the three of us together, with no people around, was the perfect way to celebrate an early birthday.

You girls are the best! ;)

Posted by Noors at 11:56 AM 3 comments

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Hmm, only today 3 people asked me where I've been. First, it was my mom, I'm home most of the time, yet I'd be in my room, either reading, or watching tv or doing something on my laptop, and sometimes just sitting and doing absolutely nothing!

Second was my grandmother, and the third was a friend whom I haven't seen in ages!

I must admit that I have been isolating myself from everyone. Don't know why, could be because I'm out all day working, that at the end of the day, or during the weekend I'd rather stay in my room and do absolutely nothing, than be out having some fun, problem is, when you do want to go out, you really have to push yourself to actually get up, get ready and leave, lol.

Posted by Noors at 12:27 PM 1 comments

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

September!

My favourite month of the year!

Why so?

Well, to start with, I was born in this month, so I guess that makes it kinda special to me. Once the month starts, I feel like it's the end of one year of a my life and the beginning of a new chapter, and a new start. I don't usually do anything special, I just make sure that I enjoy my day. Last year, I remember having a workshop on breast-feeding, lol, now that was the weirdest way to spend my day, but I must say that it was kind of interesting, we had a few laughs here and there. And of course, I had to do body pump that day, I still remember that it was yet another energy boosting class. At night, my aunts took me out for dinner, it wasn't planned at all, I think they just felt sorry that I had to spend my birthday at home, lol, the cool part was that I saw this Kuwaiti actor whom I adore! And he smiled at us! LOL I felt like a teenager at that moment!

What else do I like about this month? Well it's also the beginning of fall, and the end of summer. Everyone is back from the holiday, looking forward to a fresh new start. They're all filled with energy after unwinding their stress during the summer.

TV is always awesome during this month. Usually a lot of stations show reruns of their series throughout the summer, and it gets boring to watch old episodes, especially when they stop at a time where your series has reached a climax, and you end up having to wait the whole summer to know what is going to happen. Today for example, I got back home after doing some shopping, I asked my sister to record 'er' for me, just in case they're back to showing the new episodes. See I've seen them all, but they stopped just before 2 of my very favourite episodes from all seasons, I was so looking forward to it, I remember telling one of the docs that he HAD to watch them, lol, only to be surprised that they've gone back to showing old episodes just because it's the summer break!

Everything just seems to go right during this month. Even the weather starts to improve gradually after a hot boiling 3 months.

Only thing I hate is that, those who are studying abroad have to leave. You get used to having them around for so long, and then, when you can't go by a day without seeing them or talking to them, they have to leave. And no matter how much time they've spent outside, it's still difficult each and every time to say goodbye!

You can't have it all right! lol

Posted by Noors at 12:04 PM 13 comments

Sunday, September 11, 2005

Stress, stress, stress!

Hmm, I'm thinking of a change, I want to do something new, just to keep things more alive I guess.

I guess every now and then, we need to do something, otherwise the routine would just suck the energy out of us.

It's really scary what stress can do to people. How it gets to them, and makes them look like robots, running around, trying to keep on track, like they are in this constant race that never seems to end, and they keep pushing themselves, as they get more and more breathless, and hoping for a little break, until they collapse. The psychiatric problems that result because of stress are so many, the stress just builds on top of each other, until it becomes such a heavy burden that even the strongest among us wouldn't be able to carry all this.

*Okay I'm becoming more mentally oriented ever since I've started this rotation*

Posted by Noors at 9:18 AM 5 comments

Saturday, September 10, 2005

I wish..

I wish...

For peace of mind...

For happiness to fill my world, and of those around me..

For things to go back the way they used to be...

To go back to being kid for only one day!


Posted by Noors at 12:31 PM 3 comments

Friday, September 09, 2005

Self harm

Hmm, I don't know what made me intersted in the topic, don't worry people, I have no intentions of doing so, I'm a perfectly healthy person.

I was just reading a chapter in my psychiatry book about suicide and self harm. It just made me wonder how miserable a person can be to actually think of harming him or herself to release the pain, and take their thought out of their mental misery into a physical form. It's sad, because a lot of those do actually try and reach out and share this with someone, but unfortunatly, they're not taken seriously, and so with time, they keep it all bottled up inside them, until one day self harm or even suicide seems to make perfect sense and the best way out.

How hard is it for us to listen to those around us every now and then? Take some time out of our busy schedules and give it to someone who's in need for a listening ear and an open heart?

There are predisposing factors, okay, those are done with, and you can't do much to change them because it's all in the past, but you can help those people get over those stressful memories. Then there are the precipitating factors, now here, you can help a lot. You see that person going through a rough time, help them get through it. Offer a helping hand, it won't kill you to lend a helping hand to someone who's in need, on the contrary, at least you'll know at the end of the day that you've probably saved someone's life, instead of attending their funeral some time later and going to bed at night, thinking 'what if I had just listened?'

Posted by Noors at 11:54 AM 7 comments

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Fitness all the way...

So yesterday, I met up with my trainer, and we ended up talking about the whole group training issue again.

lol, it was good because it reminded me that of something that I've promised myself I'd work on to get certified in as soon as possible, but with all the work I have with the coming conference that we're holding, I've been too busy to do just about anything else. But now, it's back into my head. I'm gonna try and set aside one day every week, probably during the weekends, to work on this, as well as keeping up with my regular exercise program. I've emailed the organization from which I wish to get my certificate from with all my questions.

I've always thought that being educated in the fitness field, will also help me when I graduate. In a lot of cases, part of our managment regimen is to ask patients to exercise regularly, and it's just amazing how little a lot of docs know about exercise. Most would tell you to walk at least three times a week. Fair enough, that's a good enough exercise, but what if you can help your patient set up a whole exercise program? It's part of the treatment like I said, and you give your patient a variety of things to choose from. I was also thinking, especially with those patients who need to exercise but with caution, like diabetics or hypertensives, I mean, exercise is crucial in their cases, so why not give them classes, or train them regularly under your supervision? In that way, you get to get them exercising, just like you insist they take their medications, and at the same time, you observe their work outs to make sure they don't harm themselves.

It's probably a bit difficult to do, but nevertheless, there are a lot of projects going around, to try and get people to exercise, I'd like to be part of that if possible!

Posted by Noors at 12:54 PM 3 comments

And here's yet another 'thought'

Sometimes we go through phases in our lives where we feel completely disconnected with the world around us. You're so caught up in your thinking, that you become a 'prisoner' of your thoughts.

It's truly a disturbing feeling. You fail to feel for those around you, you might be concerned, but for some reason, deep inside, you can't seem to reach out and absorb exactly what is going around, like there is this thick wall that seperates you from everyone else. You try hard to break through, but eventually, you surrender and give in to the fact that this wall is, at least at that moment, unbreakable.

And when you least expect it, you're being pulled out of that 'world', and when you least expect it, you're back, feeling, connecting, and getting in touch with your family and friends.

Question is, what if it takes longer than you expected?

Posted by Noors at 12:40 PM 3 comments

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Empty....

I've been staring at my screen for a while now, and yet my mind is still blocked. Funny, I'm sitting here and I have like a thousand things that are going on inside my head, yet I can't think of a single thought that is suitable as a post lol.

Posted by Noors at 12:30 PM 5 comments

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Women are dumb!

Yes, you heard me right, women are dumb! They let their emotions get the best of em', they let their passion guide them, which is not always a bad thing if you ask me, after all I am a woman too, but in many cases all these emotions are destructive, and only harm themselves.

How many cases of abused women do we hear of? No matter how many times their partners hit them, or abuse them, verbally and physically, or no matter how many times they cheat on them, they are still led by their emotions to believe that 'maybe' there is still a possibility for him to change. I mean, come on, open your eyes for once, and think, a man that allows himself to hurt a woman will never ever change. For some reason, a lot of men seem to get this sense of power when they feel like they have their women under control, and sadly, a lot of women give them that power, by being weak, and by allowing their men to hurt them.

Why? I just want to know why? Even the smartest women, once they start to have feelings, they seem to be lead by them, rather than let them guide them along with their brains, and they let themselves dive deeper into their thoughts, that slowly suck the life out of them, and keep them completely shattered.

Of course, there are always exceptions, you do hear of some women, who decide to take over their lives, and move on, it's there, and it happens, but still, there are a lot of them out there who are in deseprate need for help, for someone to pull them out of the water and show them the path to the safety shore...

Posted by Noors at 11:58 AM 7 comments

Thursday, September 01, 2005

A walk to remember

I'm sure that most of you have seen this amazing and heart touching movie. They were showing it again on mbc 2 tonight. I stopped counting on the number of times that I've watched it, and everytime I do, it still touches me so deeply and gives me hope that maybe I do have emotions after all lol.

This movie presents to you an example of how true love is supposed to be.

" Love is always patient and kind,
It is never jealour,
Love is never boastful nor conceited.
It is never rude or selfish,
It does not take offense, and is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins..
But delights in the truth.
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope....
And to endure whatever comes.."

Everytime I hear these simple yet extremely strong words, It makes me understand really what love is all about. It gives you the true meaning of what it really feels like to love someone.

In this movie, we see how a simple girl, who strongly holds tight to what she believes in, despite the mockery of those around her, changes a guy who was moving in a completely opposite direction, just by being herself. He wasn't drawn to her by her beauty or her figure, he was attracted to her by her unique individuality, and stood by side till the last minute.

My favourite part in the whole movie, is the play scene, where Mandy Moore ends up singing one of the most beautiful songs ever, 'only hope'.

Posted by Noors at 12:50 PM 3 comments