Thursday, June 30, 2005

War of the Worlds

Okay, so I've been hearing and reading everywhere about how wonderful the movie is. One of my cousins didn't enjoy it though, maybe because it's not really her type of thing to watch, but everyone else has been posting either in sabla, or been telling me how brilliantly this 'alien attacking earth' movie is put together.

lol I'm even more desperate now to go and watch it. I even came up with the crazy idea of going to the early show alone, I don't mind it hehe, if it means that I get to see Tom Cruise, in one of the best master-pieces of Speilberg.

My sister is coming back today, maybe I can spend the night begging her too, though I doubt that she'd want to go watch a movie tomorrow, lol, maybe I should just go ahead with my idea and go alone! :)

Posted by Noors at 3:40 PM 2 comments

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

I feel awful right now. I hate it when things get to me.

I was totally ignored by the girls in my group, I kept calling them to ask them about the oncall and which doctor was coming in, but with no response. Now that they were done, and apparently had a good teaching rounds, they all decide to suddenly remember me and sms me to tell me that their oncall was very exciting, and their reason for not answering my calls or smsing me was because they were 'busy'.

It's not just that, I had a good time at my aunts house, I guess I just need to get everything out of my system.

lol I need body pump, that's my remedy!

I'm thinking of either going to bed early, or staying up studying, or watching a movie....hmm which sounds better? Sleeeep I think

Posted by Noors at 10:43 PM 2 comments

I'm clueless!

I prefer spending most of my time outside the house lol, I'm happier that way, when I'm involved with my work either in the hospital or in the college, I feel like out there, everything makes sense, and I actually do have a purpose that I'm well aware of. Everything makes sense when it comes to work....

Oh, 'war of the worlds' is coming out today, and I'm gonna miss it lol. I wish I had someone who'd go with me to the movies, I'm dying to watch it!

Tomorrow morning should be interesting though....hehe, again, work outside the house!

Enjoy your weekend ya'll!

Posted by Noors at 6:27 PM 2 comments

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

I was reading a medical journal the other day while I was taking a break from studying at the library, and I read an interesting article about the rates of suicide among doctors.

According to a study conducted, the rate of successful suicides is higher among doctors, especially the female doctors compared to others. It said that the working hours and the pressure and the stress which leads them to think of death as the best way out.

So reasons are:

- Amount of stress and pressure they are always under, along with their long working hours.
- How much their private and social lives are affected, leaving them a bit isolated from their families and loved ones, not to mention, leading to so many problems because of their constant absence from everything around them.
- Easier access to drugs which they're very aware of their effects, and so their attempts are more successful.
- Sexual harrassement, especially within women who work in male dominating areas in medicine like surgery.

It's probably because, doctors spend a lot of time trying to solve other people's problems, that they take theirs for granted, and keep neglecting them as well as their own emotional well being, until they reach a point where it gets out of control, and their only possible solution to all their problems is by killing themselves.

Posted by Noors at 10:22 PM 0 comments

Sunday, June 26, 2005

So I woke up at 6 this morning, still very excited, I got ready and left the house at 6:58 am lol, oh yeah, I was looking at my watch all the time...

I get to the hospital, and I go to the ward, get the patients file and xray and start walking towards the auditorium. I was the first to arrive, along with another doc. I start presenting, the head of medicine was there, he's the one who has given me the funny nickname, lol. Anyway, I presented, finished, and answered their questions, and I wasn't nervous at all, which was a blessing. The other consultant whom I know very well came in late, and you should've seen the surprise in his face, hehe, I'm supposed to be in SQUH not Royal, but it was a nice surprise.

They all told me I did well, it's been a while since I've heard that, and it meant a lot to me. It gave me the extra power that I needed to finish this rotation.

Now a lot were wondering so what? Well thing is, I'll be working with those docs, again and again, next time will be in my 7th year, my final year in medicine, where I need to prove to my seniors that I'm good enough to be a doc, because they'll be the ones examining you, and they find it rather odd that you would reach your 7th year, without them knowing you, or at least remembering your face, so when you volunteer to do stuff like this, when you're still a student and not an intern yet, it tells them that you're serious about your work, and you can be depended on when needed.

Today meant a lot to me, you kinda feel dumb when you're surrounded with all the other med students, a lot of which would give you the freaks because of how they're always on the edge, and how nerdy they can be, seriously it gets on my nerves sometimes, lol.

Posted by Noors at 9:26 PM 0 comments

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Omg!

I mean, it was just earlier today that I posted about how we can never predict life and what is there in store for us.

So I was in Royal this evening, as usual. And I thought it was going to be a slow night. But we had 5 admissions of malaria for some reason, and the evening rounds was interesting. When we got to the last patient, the doc asks me to clerk the patient and write it down in her file, just like an intern, while they go finish up with another patient. So I did, and I presented the case to the docs. So this doc goes like, why don't you people ever present in the morning meeting, instead of the interns every now and then? So I said I'd love to, but I wasn't in Royal for the time being. He said that I should come present the case in the morning, then go to SQUH. MY GOD! That is such a great chance for me, lol, though many might wonder what on earth I was doing in Royal, but oh well, it's still a great chance, and I shouldn't blow it off.

lol, I won't be able to sleep all night, I'm just too excited right now!

Wish me luck ya'll!

Posted by Noors at 11:21 PM 4 comments

I came to believe that we as human beings can never predict what life has in store for us. Every morning you wake up, thinking that it's just gonna be another day, same old same, nothing special or different waiting for you, and then, when you least expect it, things can be totally different in a matter of seconds.

For some reason, we, again as human beings, like to believe that we can clearly design our life, taking for granted, that there's always the element of surprise. We assume, that our lives are gonna be in a particular way, I guess, it has it's goods and bads. It's good because some of us, would like to believe that they would lead a quiet life, simple and dedicated towards a certain goal, and when nothing amazing ever happens to them, they are just content with what they have, yet at the same time, if something major crosses their road, the thrill of excitment would either take them up the sky or hit them hard, it's the latter that is probably the bad side of it. Some of us find it difficult to adjust to sudden changes in our lives, having to go from a life style that we are used to, to a completely new one takes a lot of effort, and there are always times, when we just wish that we could just go back to how our lives used to be, or, we would be adjusting so nicely and so happily, that we just wonder however we lived our lives without this major change.

Weird concept don't you think?

Posted by Noors at 5:25 PM 1 comments

Friday, June 24, 2005

I can't seem to be able to sit and study. It's a hopeless case.

I know I need to work hard, and I am, it's just the lack of concentration that is driving me up the wall.

I keep telling myself that I need to sit down and put my head straight, lol. Easier said than done.

Focus, focus, focus! Only 3 weeks to go, I don't want to blow this off....

Posted by Noors at 4:19 PM 5 comments

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Don't you just hate it when you feel absolutely clueless? You try so hard to make sense out of everything that's going on around you, yet you get back to your starting point, and it gets on your nerves sometimes, not being able to solve this, or get to a conclusion. Then once things are all clear, you feel like this huge burden has fallen off your chest, and you get this instant relieving feeling.....

Posted by Noors at 10:16 PM 2 comments

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

The heat is just absolutely unbearabe, and problem is, it keeps getting worse everyday. You get out of your car and you walk for less than a minute, and that time is more than enough to be covered in sweat. You get this wave of humid hot, or should I say boiling air brushing into you, and you just feel like suffocating

Posted by Noors at 11:58 PM 1 comments

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Today wasn't bad at all. I woke up in the morning, still tired because I went to bed at around 2 in the morning, and had to wake up at 6. lol I had to drag myself out of bed, and I was so not looking forward to the first day of the week because I was supposed to be oncall and it was supposed to be a heavy day.

Well because the clinical part of the MD examination is going on this week, most of the docs are busy during the morning with that, so we had a small session and were free for the rest of the day till 2, where we had a light bed side teaching and were free to go.

I thought I'd skip the oncall, went to City centre, and bought my dad a gift, oh and remember people, father's day is tomorrow, so I do hope that you've already gotten your dad's something, I sure did!

To end this day, I went to a body pump class. YESS!! Finally! It felt sooooooooooo good to take a class, though I miss my trainer, and her classes are the best, but oh well, something is better than nothing. What really made me miss her all of a sudden was that the trainer played the evergreen song for our warm up, and I just started to have all these memories, I miss those days, we used to really look forward to our work out everyday, and I used to do the impossible to make sure I'm there at least 3 times a week, it was my source of energy. I want it back so badly, we all do.

Posted by Noors at 10:40 PM 2 comments

Monday, June 13, 2005

As I was driving to SQUH this morning, I notice all these new radars that have been installed all of a sudden, and they're not one or two, you find one every few meters and it's annoying! Seriously, you go just above the limit and you're caught! I mean how rediculous is it to put one after the other, just like the street lights. Were they that deseperate to find a way to stop the numbers of RTA's (road traffic accidants), or is it the best way to collect money? pfff

Don't get me wrong, lol. True, I do speed sometimes, not always, I do it when I'm late or just tired of driving, but I'm careful, and I've never been a reckless driver, but I think it's silly to have radars like this, it's just a waste of time, and just think of the many times that you'll all be caught just because you were just above the allowed speeding limit.

Driving will never be the same! lol

Posted by Noors at 11:20 PM 9 comments

Friday, June 10, 2005

I was watching an episode of 'desperate housewives', they started the episode by saying that we come into this life, and we move though our journey here with a partner to look after us, and that lonliness is not part of our human nature.

I know it's true, and since the day we're born, we look for someone to take care of us. Our parents while we're young, a friend or a teacher maybe while we're kids growing up, and later in our adult life, we look for this partner who you can spend the rest of your life with, and no matter how many bad choices we make when choosing that partner, we still rise after each fall and start our search for that someone.

So if someone chooses to stay alone, does this mean that they are faking it? That they've been hurt before, and decide to live in denial, telling themselves that they can live all alone, or can it really be part of who they are?

I respect it when someone decides on this, I know I was the same, but then again, how long can we go on in this life all alone? Will life have a different taste of we share it with someone you're close to? Now that's something definite, again I say, it's part of who we are I guess!

Posted by Noors at 11:34 PM 4 comments

Sunday, June 05, 2005

I heard today that the percentage of female doctors in Japan is only 20%. Apparently, the idea of women in the medical field is still not well established over there, despite the fact that they are one of the leading developed countries, they still believe that a woman does not really belong in the hospital, and certainly not in some of the specific fields. They do have female nurses, in fact, most of their nurses are females, but when it comes to doctors, they make a minority.

I was just surprised to hear of these statistics. I thought such a developed country would utilize the females in the working area, especially in medicine, since they still have a shortage in staff, since they only prefer Japanese employers.

We have a lot more women in the medical field here in Oman. We do have some specialties that are male dominated, but it is those areas that are in desperate need for females, because of our culture, and because we do face the problem that many women patients prefer seeing female doctors. I guess it's a privilage if you think of it, that we are needed, it just gives us a broader variety of choices, and get the benefits and oppertunities to get into spcialities that we aim for, compared to men that is!

Posted by Noors at 12:25 AM 1 comments