The Story of Me!

Heart broken

Yes I am, big time...

I've always accepted the fact that I'm not very lucky when it comes to getting something that I really wanted. For some reason, the more I want something, the more difficult it is for me to get it, it's like somehow it gets all jinxed.

As hard as it is to not get anything you want, everytime I would tell myself that there's a reason behind it that I'm not aware of, and I believe in that. I believe that God has a reason behind everything that happens. Sometimes though it gets to me, the disappointment that is.

For over a year now, I had it set in my mind that I wanted to train and become a certified group fitness instructor. I bought the book, and I was hoping that an exam would be set in Dubai, but it wasn't, not this year anyway. Then I found out that it was going to be held in London, during the time that I'll be in the UK for my elective, well I got my dates mixed up and missed the deadline, again even though it was a big hit on my face, I just let it go.

Now a while ago, I found out that there's a Schwinn Cycling Course that was supposed to be held between June 10th and 11th in London, so I got all hyped up. I called my dad and got the green light from him, and I called the course coordinator, only to be told that it was already fully booked. She told me, however, to call in a week because some people end up cancelling and so there might be a space for me. A week later I call her, and guess what! There was a spot for me. I was starting to have my doubts about whether or not I should go ahead with it, but I told myself, I've always wanted this, I won't get this chance again, and I got my parents approval! So I got called the coordinator, and told her I was in. This morning, I had some problems getting train tickets (they were all very expensive) but eventually I did, and then I paid for my course, I was so happy and I thought to myself, tonight, I'm gonna be in London, at my grandparents place, be comfy on the sofa and watch tv the whole night, then enjoy two days of nothing but cycling. Like they say 'ya far7a ma tamat', only 10 minutes later I get a call from my sister telling me that my mom just called and told her that the house was actually under renovation. There were workers inside, the house was a mess, there were no windows, anddddd the door might have been changed, so our keys won't work. I felt like someone just hit me real hard on the head. The coordinator told me to not cancel right away, to try and sort it out. I tried for several hours with no luck, and I just cancelled my spot in the course....

I'm seriously heart broken. I thought to myself, finally, I'm getting something I've always wanted, something outside medicine, something to add on to my life, no matter how crazy people thought I were, I wanted it so badly that I was okay with having much less money left for shopping here to just take this course. Now it's gone. Yet again, I lost a chance to have something in my empty life, something besides medicine....

Oh well...

Posted by Noors at 8:01 AM